Tiring and delusional..

am i seriously getting desperate?zz i think i am.her face her name her voice just cannot get outta my mind.y is that si difficult?is it really love at first sight?or am i just delusional to even think she would wanna be with me?argh..dunno.i have never gone over the board over a girl since the former.haiz.ok relax marcus..pull yourself together.!!tmd.anyways..day passed normally stupid dinesh didnt come school.pangseh me.haiz.but to tell you the truth, the day passed rather quickly.and he just told me he most likely would not be coming tomorrow.nice.how freaking nice.behind is just bored stiff without him.dang.day passed mundanely today as well.went with jerrold to print some photos.7bucks!LOL.managed to bargain a bit haha.after that was off to study champ.really retarded coz the way the teachers went about class was simply..weird.they split us into groups so weichin nick me were with nabila nadia darren and shuying.stupid wesley and pamela all pangseh.zz.we were asked to make a team logo and come out with 3 reasons for the logo.we came with an egg-shaped idea.LOL.was really funny coz weichin and i were talking bout nick being a half-boil egg.haha.guess what was our group name.NOlevels.nice right?since there were peeps taking Ns and Os..y not the name?and guess whose idea was that?MINE!haha.but nadia and nabila did the design for it.class became ultra boring after that.made friends with nadia and nabila in the end.more of nadia anyways.class ended and the team with the best logo designs and group names were out.guess what..WE WON!some more we won coz they liked the name coz of its creativity.the design was also good.hahaha.nicely done team.LOL.was super hungry after the class so nick and i went to eat.met nadia along the way so asked her if she wanted to join us for a bite.LOL.never had a junior agreed to my request!haha.ate and talked all they way thru..haha.how funny.found out she was in the same primary school as me.LOL.1 year younger somemore.

delusion vs desperation vs reality.
have i lost my senses?or did i lose it to her.to be serious.i have never gone crazy over other girls other than my previous.or is it just me being delusionised.
am i being desperate?being suddenly alone has left me being a forlorn figure.but on that particular day this girl came into my realm and have made me go berserk everytime i daydream.
am i lost or do i not want to accept reality?this is not much of a brainer.reality has set me in that i may not be with her again since whe parting of ways.so y cant i just move on?
haiz.dev told me to try it out and ask her to Impressions which is a long way more to go.April 4th.charles told me relax first and see how things go.wilson asked me to try and know her more.dang..Fuck my consciences.Fuck my brain.Fuck my senses.Fuck my emotions.i never knokw what will happen tomorrow.only God knows.studies are becoming tougher.i need to focus more.Os results are getting released real soon.only time will tell my next step towards another level of life.

Help and advise me.
Delusioned?Desperate?Reality?

Here is a quote i made randomly;
Teacher asks, ' why do we need Math in our every day life?'
my answer? ' Life is Calculative. '
Understand where im flowing?

Peace.