Hmmm...

Funnily how I have been actually deciding to write anything here. For quite sometime I haven't blogged. Now I've already blogged in a span of a few days. Hmm and that is because there have been something on my mind and that my friends have been talking about it as well. I want to ask all, whoever might be reading this retarded piece of shit, : Do you know the true meaning of love? I'm very sure majority of answers would be : It is a feeling. It is a gesture. Yes this are the right answers. However, I would really urge you to step into the realm and think again. Love is actually, a committment. Yes, love is a feeling, undoubtedly. But imagine this 1 simple scenario : What happens when you feel the feeling has faded? Are you just end the relationship and find the feeling back with another? After hearing from a married couple about their committment to one another is simply, touching and full of envy. 20years of being married and another 5 years of courtship. What committment eh? Many asked how they have managed to sustain such a lasting marriage. The answer was just as easy as reciting ABC : committment. Also, surely, in a world like ours now. We talk about having boyfriends or girlfriends. Maturely speaking, many now have matured and says that, no matter what happens, being committed to the one that you are with, is just the best. It is a responsibility. It is also a chance to mature oneself. I haven't had the chance for a little more than 2years since that last ordeal. Life is full of ups and downs and many of us do not have true friends. The kind of friends who go through thick and thin with you, the kind that you know, who has your back. At least you know that you have someone close enough, to share your joy and pain, your sufferings and your celebrations. So my only advise is to choose wisely and to think carefully. It is useless to just enter a relationship based on feeling and that both of you are in it because you just ' love ' each other. Both must have the maturity and the responsibility and the committment to stick together.

I know I have been sounding a little old for awhile. But I believe this are learning processes that help one learn from mistakes. I'm not calling myself significant but I know I have been through periods where I believe Life is trying to make a statement. Everything is never perfect, no matter how perfectly you plan things out.

·Peace™·
Cos' Life is full of mysteries...

Trust...

Here am I typing away in the morning. Unusual of me to do so. There's 1 thing on my mind that is irritating me for quite awhile. The word trust. When it comes to trust issues, it is a big deal. When the trust between 2 people is damaged, it can never be repaired. I admit that I myself sometimes cannot be trusted. I'm living in a life of lies. Trust is.. feeling secure, knowing that you can count on that person. In a relationship, without trust nothing is possible. Both parties would start doubting each other. Whats the use of the relationship since there is no trust? I remember myself getting stuck in a situation like this. I was good friends with my ex-girlfriend's best friend. We would go out for lunches or for dinners a few times since we lived close to one another. But here is the catch : My girlfriend knows about it. I tell her about it and she accepts it. There is communication. When there is communication, there would certainly be trust. I remember having friends telling me that they do not trust their boyfriends/girlfriends. This is a simple decision to make if you really don't trust your partner : Thrash things out with them or simply, break up? It is harsh but it is the suggestion. Trust is built on a long-term basis. You can't just go up to a person and tell them ' I trust you '. That would totally be ridiculous. For a guy, for someone to trust them is almost like their credibility. When the guy is not trustworthy, there would be a chain reaction among friends that he is not trustable. It is especially true when a guy tells a girl he would wait. Proving her wrong that guys can wait for anything. Once the girl is proven wrong, there is trust. Time plays a part. People need to know what type of person are you. I know many trusted friends. But remember, they aren't exactly your best friends. Time plays a part because it allows you to know that person better.
I used to be a liar, a total bitchass liar. I lied to my parents before. I lied to teachers before. I lied to friends before. But all that has changed. I realise that, once a lie is told, another lie has to be committed. Would you want to live a life of lies? It certainly is useless. Also in the real world, with a person of trust, there would certainly be contacts all around. The cruel and real world needs trustworthy people. It is becoming a nuisance, what with corruption and many other tragedies befalling on innocent people.
If your reading this somewhere out there. Trust is a virtue. Being trusty is being cool.

·Peace™·
Cos' trust is the love..

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I have witnessed 2 sad events in only a week. 2 break-ups, 2 decimated souls looking for help. I've never really envisaged myself in such a situation. And coming to think of it, it was just about a year ago on the evening of 16th December 2007 when we decided to break-up. How fast has time flies eh? I must confess that, when I was told of this 2 recent incidents, I realised that you have actually never left me. We went out a couple of times together and have been chatting all the way through the night. I realise we were just friends. I must say that relationships can bring out the good and the bad of individuals. For me, it brought out the best in me. I cared for someone other than my family. I knew what responsibility was. I knew how to console someone and cheer someone up. I knew I would always be there to lend someone a listening ear whenever they wanted. If they needed help from me, I would be gladly assist them. Even if they didn't treat me well, I would still treat them as a friend. Also, this has brought out the worst in me. I found out I wasn't the type to let go easily. I realised that whats past is past and can never be relieved again. But I had to learn, to learn to move on. To let go and to think positive. For this 2 incidents, both had and are still having difficulties moving on. Friends are surely the utmost importance. I remembered I barely had a single good friend when I broke up with her. I didn't have someone to talk to, to pour my soul out to and to lift my burden to. Sure, reality might have made you a fool. However there is 1 thing that can certainly allow you to move on and tell back reality, is to look forward. Move on. What is done is done and no one will ever have the power to turn back time. Whoever out there who might be reading this might say I'm blabbering nonsense just to fill the spaces, but I'm sure you have felt that way before, just like everyone else?

There is someone I am waiting for. Though many have said that it might be futile to wait as she might not accept me in the end. But why give in when no decision has been made? God makes each and everyone of us fight for what we want. I know, undoubtedly there would be millions of obstacles that would be put in my way, but I'm going to go on and fight for what I want. This has been the lowest week of my holidays and I really do hope, that there would be something good at the end of it all.

·Peace™·
Cos' life is full of ups and downs..

P.S. Eh yo Brother and peas.. if you really come across here and read whatever somehow and some way. Cheer up, move on. There is nothing else but the future left to discover. GAMBATEH!