Misunderstandings..

Aye.. where to start? I have been feeling mis-understood all this time. I think everyone that I'm close to, or at least, good friends with, know that I am someone who treats everyone well, as long as your my friend. But if my actions seem to show a motive or giving you a hint to something, please I beg you, NOT TO MIS-UNDERSTAND MY ACTIONS. I treat everyone fairly and equally. It is never in my nature to mis-treat somebody. Even if I do, I make up the mistake and make it up to that person. I never want people to mis-understand my actions and let them know that whatever I'm doing is really, just in my nature.

Hmm. This few days has been a turmoil for me. Money spent unwisely was 1. I mean, $47.50 on bowling? WHOA! Then there were other issues where I feel I'm being used. This has been a very long time since I've ranted here since I've been typing out about mistakes I myself have learnt from. I hate the feeling of being used. Time and again, I've told myself that no matter under what circumstances, I shall never be someone needed only for the bad times. I mean, it is alright if you want me to lend you a listening ear, however I don't want to be taken for granted. That sucks, really.

Why have so much problems come up with whatever I do? I can't live by each day thinking whether I have created problem. My actions have caused mis-understandings. My heart has been played. The one interest that I have is slipping away and most probably belong to someone else already. I think the only reason why I am still able to wake up each day is to look forward to soccer trainings and hanging out with the soccer team. I hardly know what I am up to and barely know what are my directions. Even sailing, I am losing out the passion I am having in it. Yes he might not make it but will they still want to consider me? My soccer standard has dropped considerably. The only thing that I am good at, I think, is just playing DotA, and wasting money away. I can't wait for school to start so that I can put my focus at somewhere else and not think of the daily problems. I can't rely on playing pool or going bowling as it really is taking up too much money of mine. Haiz, how good is it not to be me eh?

·Peace™·
Cos' I'm fading out..