What if...

What if it was known i would not go sailing on saturdays..thus me being able to go to cell meetings with e462.What if we had not struck a conversation with each other at our first meeting..would i have been intrigued by you?lets see..been only what..less than 3months since we last known each other..you know that i like you and i know im being a complete retard by telling myself i have a damn chance..NICE!why did all this things..small small events that happened?causing such complications and to the extent that we didn't even said 'Hi' to each other when we actually walked past each other in that rather narrow bridge that connects the door and the living room.You'all can call me crazily intrigued and captivated by this girl..you made me living again..helping me get back certain senses into my initially senseless-body and mind.buying you those flowers certainly meant something..so did asking you out.Seriously,what if..i had never set those eyes of mine upon you?
Some have said my life has been on the up.Some say my life has never had a down.well hear hear!MARCUS IS GOING DOWNHILL ALL OF A SUDDEN!much stuff has happened recently.in school and outside.in school my grades are on a all time low, some screwed up case came up, life is getting rather monotonous in school.outside..lets see.i got ditched, hiking strap is tearing apart, the above in the 1st para[LOL!], sailing.
My mind is certainly going screwed up as well.i cant help my bro who is having some problems in his relationship, i seem to be getting into ways of others.

Life does not end though, a real fact that we humans must go through.
Only God can help us in real times of need.
I need a peace of mind.

Peace™ xD