Leap-ing Day...

today is the 29th of feb..lived only once every four years.haha.LOL!
school was quite boring though.chinese remedial then soccer..WOOTS!SCORED 7GOALS!haha.with james izzat shaun jerrold ben nelson aravindh.3c connection there again..haha.Cell at jerb's place today..fellowship with wilson gladwin jerb sandy paul and alfred was a funny affair.haha..sad she was not there today, or rather..better?xD.forget it..haha.super packed day and tired but well..i just wanna..

Thank God for helping me pass my Chemistry test!11 out of 20.though not a good score but still, its a pass!haha.been coming but finally..the wait to pass has ended.chinese written work as well..6/10 for letter and 13/25 for compo, not that bad..coming from someone that utterly hates chinese.my history tests as well..think im the highest?dunno dun care but still doing well in history makes me go easy!haha.really wanna thank God..SERIOUSLY!

Remember a few posts ago..i said im wishing for something good to happen to me?haha though it was a different type 'something good', it turns out that the something good is for my tests results.REALLY ENCOURAGING!haha.PRAISE THE LORD!
still wishing for something else to become better..haiz..:(:(:(!

Faithfulness begets Fruitfulness begets Faith..
3 steps of life we need every day.

Peace™..
Cos' here comes the BOOM!

Dj MaC..

haha..ok kinda addicted to the Dj Max game.been playing it non-stop and have yet to do any freaking work.Nothing whatsoever happened today..just chatting to FangLu for awhile.YAWNS!!aight..adios pussies..!!

Peace™..
Cos' a hurricane is coming..

CHIBAN!

haha.LOL done with D-Grayman!i mean finally watched till where they stop streaming.DANG!episode 71.LENALEE IS IMBAL HOT AND CUTE!
anyway school was quite boring and ARGH!psychology is 9pts..!!so im retaking math.NO CHOICE!CANT COUNT ON MY SCIENCE!

Nobody is meant to be alone.
Life is spent with a partner..
However I'm missing mine...

Peace™..
Cos' life is taking a toll..

Flabberghasted..

since when the fuck did 2 motherfucking yellow flags not warrant a fucking DSQ??how insane!!whats the cause?lets see..
1. Quek Zhen Hao 3pts
2. Shane Ong 9pts
3. Zach Poon 13pts
4. Marcus Heng 13pts
if shane got the fucking DSQ..i would have been on 12pts and 3rd and i would fucking win a prize!_I_=.=""_I_ this is to sailing man..haiz..well it fucking hurts..DUH!adding to the list of the unfortunate events happening to me..i can star in a movie like A Series of Unfortunate Events : By Marcus Heng.ZZ!
Why does everything seem down to me?she seems to be avoiding me already..school life isn't so meaningful..sailing has been fun but during regattas, results are no where near good. friends and family are the only good things to me now..and thats a good thing.God is also a good thing to me.He is someone who can bring happiness once again into this happy-to-sad life. Can't something good just happen to me for once in 2weeks?thats all I'm asking..one motherfucking thing that is good to happen to me.
FUCK!im sounding super emo but well, how else can i go through this torrid time?it isn't easy for one who is attempting certain chances and gets fucked up to the core.

tomorrow is back to school and im not fucking done with my work.ARGH!haha..
Life goes on though it SUCKS!
I'm only asking for something good, whatever it is to happen.
And I'm wishing that she and I could at least remain friends.
Fuck sailing.

Peace™..
For I'm gon create havoc..

What if...

What if it was known i would not go sailing on saturdays..thus me being able to go to cell meetings with e462.What if we had not struck a conversation with each other at our first meeting..would i have been intrigued by you?lets see..been only what..less than 3months since we last known each other..you know that i like you and i know im being a complete retard by telling myself i have a damn chance..NICE!why did all this things..small small events that happened?causing such complications and to the extent that we didn't even said 'Hi' to each other when we actually walked past each other in that rather narrow bridge that connects the door and the living room.You'all can call me crazily intrigued and captivated by this girl..you made me living again..helping me get back certain senses into my initially senseless-body and mind.buying you those flowers certainly meant something..so did asking you out.Seriously,what if..i had never set those eyes of mine upon you?
Some have said my life has been on the up.Some say my life has never had a down.well hear hear!MARCUS IS GOING DOWNHILL ALL OF A SUDDEN!much stuff has happened recently.in school and outside.in school my grades are on a all time low, some screwed up case came up, life is getting rather monotonous in school.outside..lets see.i got ditched, hiking strap is tearing apart, the above in the 1st para[LOL!], sailing.
My mind is certainly going screwed up as well.i cant help my bro who is having some problems in his relationship, i seem to be getting into ways of others.

Life does not end though, a real fact that we humans must go through.
Only God can help us in real times of need.
I need a peace of mind.

Peace™ xD

Surprise surprise!!!

haha..firstly..MANUTD WON 4-0!dang arsenal got their ass whooped real bad at OT.secondly,LIVERPOOL LOST 2-1 AT HOME!well done barnesly!totally deserved it!nicely done there howard!haha.thirdly..mrs calais has let up!she allows me to other work during her period though i must do whatever work she requires me to..LOL!fourth..i haven't been caught..dang..its a matter of time i think but well..no running.fifth, i constantly sailed in 2 strong wind days..legs gonna break apart..but still felt SHIOK!haha.lastly..ITS DINESH'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!haha..happy 17th bro..may all ur endeavours come true.haha..

today school was really subdued..common tests at the first and last periods..totally dreading the results of the tests already!haha but well..i tried.English was crap while Amath was horrible.haha.boring part was chinese.thought sitting at alfred and junjie there would be better..should have thought otherwise and should have sat with james.LOL!after school was dumb as well..weizhi was trying to get answers from that auntie..but she just would not relent!went to library after that and yea..thats that for today i believe..

One joy dispels a hundred cares - Confucius.
Without music, life is a journey through a desert. -Pat Conroy
For everything you have missed, you have gained something else; and for everything you gain, you lose something. -Ralph Waldo Emerson

here are some quotes made by people of wisdom..take them into consideration and put them into aspects of life..for me this 3 quotes totally make sense.

Life goes on no matter what happens.
I failed once, but shall get up again and try.
Can't you just give me a try?
Like i said, without trying, you will never know what the outcome will be..
Please..
With Sincerity..

Peace™

Cut lip..

got myself a cut lip today..bugger elbowed me.NOT A FIGHT!WAS SOCCER!haha finally with my shoes..scoring and playing much much much better.hahah.school was a bore today till that unfortunate incident happened.but well..life goes on?YES!soccer was a cool day for me..didn lose till the last match..totally heated match we had.hmmm.rushed down to riverwalk for combine cg.I WAS THE ONLY GUY!alfred was doing sound system so in e462..i was the only guy!dang..haha..after cg was supper at BK with alfred belinda and sweemin.funny afair by my observations.LOL!the art of listening and not talking much is a good way of jacking people!dang.trained home while belinda took bus.as usual..dropped at eunos with sweemin again..quite quiet i believe.but well..when im there, there is sure laughter round the corner.LMAO!anyways..gonna sleep..eyes this few days super tired..

Quiet Success..
The cut lip is nothing compared to God's power of Love.
If only every day was just like today...

Peace™:)

Misery LOVES ME..

aight..today was supposed to be a day where the air will be filled with love for everybody.however for me,it somehow seemed only misery filling my surrounding air.ditched earlier, i came to school, had to stand coz i forgot to bring my thermometer and my songbook.then my sideburns got caught.bit of suan-ing from mr.chiang.didnt finish SS test coz went back late.was 'disposed' as chairperson.supposedly lost a set of keys for class lock.lost games in P.E. . yea this many things happened to me in a day that is supposed to feel love.RAHHHH!did i just hit a bad patch?or just really that sadded.earlier found out that she has 'criterias' bout the guys she wishes to have.i believe im somehow not there.

What is Pain when there is Love?
But what is Love when you only feel Pain?

That is the irony of life.you think things will just somehow spin your way but it just turns round you and choke you.this is my beef towards life.1 more thing might just go out of my way is the flowers im sending.will it change the situation?or will it just become weirder?dang.totally pissed!

If only I could go to sleep without waking up..
I would then have no need to face the music.
But life would never let you do so till you give your final breath.

Peace™ :(.

Hope?

been days since i came here.haha.either busy or just lazy.anyways..got ditched.yea.LAUGH IF U WANNA!I WOULDN'T HIT YOU!haha.tomorrow is valentine's day..and guess wad..im freaking alone..fag..gay!haha.school was quite ok today.japanese students on exchange to our school were the main attraction.talked up few while 1 really caught my eye.haha..IM NOT HORNY!dang.played blackjack all the way during free periods..was losing initially but well..lady luck was certainly shining on me soon.was losing like some 20bucks but won back and won $3.50 . haha while yong won 25bucks.wesley won 8.mark was banker so you can imagine his face when we finally ended.gonna study ss so yea..piss off marcus!!

I was never alone for God was and is forever with me.
But if she had actually said yes, it would have felt much much better.

Peace™:)

Some games can never be played alone..

soccer cant be played alone.basketball cant be played alone.sports teams always say : there is no I in team.Love is sometimes like a game.yes i may not be old enough to know what love is like, but i can at least say there is no I in Love.it takes 2 hands to clap ; 2 souls and hearts to combine. i am still thinking if the time i ripe and ready for the taking. some say music makes one turned on and when both share the same interest in the same instrument,things may happen. musical instruments should be banned in some areas of life.seriously.even in a duet, there is no I in there.that night i lied there paralytic.not knowing what the hell should i do.OK!STOP BEING EMO!hhahaha
anyway..soccer at 4+ with justinwong ri chris nick zhicao zul jackson.was really really fun.playing with them is always fun..though u get scoldings but still..in a fun way..hahahha.scored 3 today.amazing huh.lost my touch of late.haha..in the end blisters on the soles of my feet..grrr.came home and to starbucks..I SAT A PORSCHE!haha.uncle alvin's.ate at Thai Express since cartel was full.haha.only person lacking was micheal bah.always nick damian wilbur and i.mike has army to deal with..aye..
chinese new year passing so quickly.soon it will be valentine's day.soon it will be civil defence day.soon it will be me becoming a councillor.dang..

passed by simpang bedok today.dunno if that one person is reading this..but all that memory came back when i passed by there.first supper on our half a date.haha LOL

Some games can never be played alone..try it..it sucks.
Peace™:)

how i totally feel..

I hate feeling like this
I'm so tired of trying to fight this
I'm asleep and all I dream of
Is waking to you
Tell me that you will listen
Your touch is what I'm missing
And the more I hide I realize I'm slowly losing you
Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you
Chorus:
I don't wanna live
I don't wanna breathe
'les I feel you next to me
You take the pain I feel
Waking up to you never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream
'cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so real
I hate living without you
Dead wrong to ever doubt you
But my demons lay in waiting
Tempting me away
Oh how I adore you
Oh how I thirst for you
Oh how I need you
Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you
Chorus:
I don't wanna live
I don't wanna breathe
'les I feel you next to me
You take the pain I feel
Waking up to you never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream
'cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so real
Breathing life
Waking up
My eyes
Open up
Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you
Chorus:
I don't wanna live
I don't wanna breathe
'les I feel you next to me
You take the pain I feel
Waking up to you never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream
'cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so real
Oh how I adore you
Waking up to you never felt so real
Oh how I thirst for you
Waking up to you never felt so real
Oh how I adore you
I...
The way you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so real...


Fuck this shit.
Peace™:)

...

it seemed awkward the whole time.haiz.but then..what can i have done?=.=life sucked and it totally did.haiz.5 of them stayed over my house.didn sleep till like 6.now i feel if im to ask her to the dumb concert in april..it would totally seem fucked up.LOL.
aye think i should just concentrate on studies first.no relationships i guess.anyway school today was quite retarded.lost 1-0 to izzat on winning11 PSP.sadded.haha.partied all the way.taught them how to play bridge.LOL.finally!anyways at hall, 5a won the champion for noticeboard.great achievement for those who did it.yup.CONGRATS!mrs calais is totally excited we won.haha.
reunion was an average affair.eugene was like the oldest and the norm : just 2 guys at the ' non-adult' table.ahaha.

Happy Chinese New Year anyways.
Peace™:)

Hmmm

aight.chances of me going to the april event seems slim since i cant get a date.LOL!but damn..if only i had the balls to do everything i can within my power, i would surely do it.so here is my piece : if i cant get her you people would not see me there.haha.anyways school was kinda slack.had a talk with mr ng about whether i should retake my E.math.he said i should not retake so that i can concentrate more on science CH and A.math.but well, decided that i should just put in more effort in those 3 but just maintain myself in E.Math.DUN TIRE YOURSELF OUT!ITS CHINESE NEW YEAR!haah..study champ after school again.funny thing was mr wee was our teacher.haha.weird huh.
bought another topman shirt.LOL!im not saying anything but im buying stuff from topman cos i have vouchers from some bank.so my parents are allowing me to buy my stuff there.haha.doing chinese work while watching Heros and also thinking about her.

Thank you God for giving my wisdom.Amen.
Peace™:).

No balls,No guts..

if only i had the guts and the balls, i might have left that house a different person.well i tried what i could to bring her along.aights.met james at sweemin's house coz he was doing up her wall.idiotic james.LOL nvm.between him and i.aye aye aye aye.it was there that i thought i lost myself.but then,james kept bringing me down to earth by disturbing my thoughts.hmmm.but...ALL THE DAMN BUTS KEEP COMING UP!i would just admit it.NO BALLS NO GUTS.if i had those...you never know.kept tempting her to come along e99's reunion dinner.STEAMBOAT!dang but she still doesnt want to.haiz.well..cant force cant i?

i asked this question to alfred:should i chase this seemingly impossible dream?
Should i?or shouldn't i?
i talked of my fears of what my actions might lead to her reactions.
What should i do?
Another surprise birthday celebrations again.for joseph and i.haha.THANKS E99!
Thank you God for all the wonderful people i have met through you.Amen.

Peace™:)