TIRED!!!

7-8th...
NIGHT CYCLING!haha.before that was dumb parents-teachers-meeting.night cycling was..fun?but duh..freaking tiring!my team was Jean rachel don aaron james ben alfred and me.haha not that bad already since we were the only team to have girls in the team and finished 3rd.see..cycled from bedok reservouir to bedok town park to kembangan to siglap connector to east coast park to changi village.DANG!lucky was not intense cycling if not i would be left with just skin and bones.saw her along the way and she asked me a question.. ' marcus you know what is this ''sweeties'' thing? ' LOL ROFLMAO!!but yea..i don't even know what in the world is that!!cycled and cycled and onto changi road.sickest longest and shittest stretch of roads.was a never ending ride..so long that james ben and i kept singing no matter how bad we sounded.found out rachel was the granddaughter of one of the old lady that stays in the same lane as me and that she knows and has seen me before.=.=".we finally ended at 5.48am.the exact time when i saw my phone.chiong-ed to the nasi lemak stall for FOOD!!!haha.lay around trying to get some sleep but ben just kept harassing me with my phone.photos and after that home!haha finally..took bus with james aaron and don.dropped off at james's busstop and i cabbed home.SLEPT ALL THE WAY to 12.45pm.KAOZ!and i had to go sailing.zz..dinner at cafe iguana with sis and mom then after that home!though man utd lost..ITS OK!THE CHAMPS LEAGUE WILL BE OURS!


this thing..a phenomena..keeps cropping up my head.let me ask you a simple question: Do you like if you find out your 'friend' only speaks to you when they are in need of help or in need of company cos he/she is lonely?think about it..even if you have never felt it, maybe in some ways done the same to others?i know i have but i always try to make amends.and i am feeling that someone is doing that to me right now.aights..so what if we have only known each other for barely 3months?so what if i expressed my likings for you by sending you flowers and asking you out on Valentine's day?can't we just be friends that speak to each other normally and not avoid each other with weird glances?when i was cycling on the long stretch of changi road..i looked back at the times you actually talked to me or communicated through other kinds of communication.first one was facebook.you asked if i knew anybody who could do up your room.then you asked if you could join our group when we had steamboat cos you didn't really like it there.then during the race, you asked if i knew what was that word mean or where you could find it.i said i didn't know and scoffed off.then normally you had no one to go back with and you always asked if we could go back together..but no..you had company then and didn't even ask me at all.WOW!once again i'm not being sensitive but it is seriously fucked up if you do that to someone.FUCKED UP is the phrase to describe it.Eminem once said ; If you've got nothing nice to say then fucking don't say anything.I say ; Was i just someone you thought could use for help and company when you were in need of help and company?if i was..then i'm a fucker for liking you.then i'm a fucker and a sucker for you.i blame myself cos it was a fucking wishful thinking on my part.if you ever read through this..take some time to reflect..


·Peace™·
Cos them motherfuckers need it.