Emotional turmoil...

It has been..somewhat 2 and a half months since i visited this place.. I call it a place as this is where my feelings come true. There are no lies, no secrecy, no gossips and no immorality. I must be dreaming if ever there is such a world come true. You must think i sound girlish but.. I'm so damn serious. If you felt for me, something at the very least, why can't you give us a try? You have never entered love though you had occasional crushes. But if feelings are mutual and maturing, why can't it progress? I sensed anxiety and surprise. 8months and it still don't work and i believe i don't deserve it. You must have sensed the signals or else you would not even know that it is merely more than a crush. What more can a guy do to, other than impressing, get the girl to understand love, accept it, embrace it with willingness. You must have seen many failures of love but why not try it yourself? I just pray and hope i'm not just a 'very good friend'. I've done things out of the ordinary. I never picked up the courage to ask a girl out on a movie with other friends, make friends with her nor help her find stuff where she is in need nor ask a girl for a stayover at my place nor giving you a ride home late in the night even though my house comes first nor have i ever gone crazy over a girl before. It has been 8months since we knew each other. You couldn't make it when the Brothers of SA and alfred celebrated my birthday but your birthday is somehow etched in my mind. It has been out of this world whenever we are close.. Remember that walk down the beach when i proposed to walk you home? I thought there was an unmistakable sign for both us. You could feel it and i could feel it. Life goes on but will my desire in you last? I don't know the future nor do i bother about the past though the present shows danger...

Let nature take its course..

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Cos' I can't take it anymore...-o-''

Why So Serious? =)

After watching the Dark Knight.. i have come to agree with the Joker. I know he is a psychopathic motherfucking free-killing piece of joke that kills people for fun.. He shows how manipulative he can be.. turning the best of people and turning and twisting them and easily make them worst. He showed that even heros fall from grace.. And best of all...

Why So Serious, Son? Lets put a Smile...on that face..

If BatMan is the Vigilante everyone wants to be in their lives..why not put yourself in the Joker's shoes? He manipulates people..making everyone kill each other. But he shows that everyone is always so Serious..He's just trying to put a smile to their faces. He shows us that money is not everything..But your love for the people you love and hate.. that is everything...


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Cos' Why So Serious?

BAKA NACHIM!!

Hello hello. First of all, i wanna wish Selena Ng, james and shaun a HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY!haha.celebrating James's birthday was crazily fun..imagine you are the one always shooting jokes about someone and suddenly..you find yourself tied up and bound to the tables and people finally taking revenge while your are helpless?HAH that totally happened!!!dang James..you better appreciate that shirt swee and i bought for you!haha. now now..imagine again..class 5a soccer team : Nicholas(GK); Wesley,Zul,WeiChin,Dinesh(Def);WeiZhi,Izzat,Vind(Mf);Mark,Marcus,Shaun(Striker). What the FUCK right?haha its a damn good team!!BRING IT ON!!hmm if only we can stick it around longer..we can further develop and beat other teams..LOL!!
P.S : Selena..i SHOULD be getting your jacket soon..so DON'T WORRY!heh

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Cos' my head loves it..

White Chocolate Dreams..

aight its been years since i last wrote something in here.so here it goes..

soccer yesterday..DAMN!jason's boots aren't that bad..but the field was off.hah we lost though. many things happened on the field. had few moments myself but didn't really have much to remember other than being mega physical and quick thinking/footed. really tiring match. but i think..from what the rest said..this game was much much much better than the last time they met..hah.
hmm i'm damn effing bored. school was quite ok.talked a lot today.didn't study much.DAMN!haha.
ahh bored..

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Cos' its getting to me..

Soccer = Sailing?

NO MORE SAILING!ITS SOCCER FOR NOW!yes yes.haha.the plummer is away with junhao and elizabeth. so yea..time to slack off sailing for a bit at least! haha. anyways yesterday was a real feel good time with james's church people.not bad. some event and a "restaurant" called MusicInMyBackYard.cool eh?fine dining style.not that much but with the gigs..it was really cool.bit of chilling around was not bad either.then..
Soccer today.no at first was floorball?man i tell you..floorball takes the breath away from you.LITERALLY!!haha 10mins of playing was enough to make me wanna sit down and not do anything for awhile.!! anyways after that was field soccer. WARNING! : Those that do not have field boots and wanna play field soccer,GET FIELD BOOTS!if not you will truly suffer. haha seriously..even my tough Nike boots cant take the tough wet conditions.hmm next week its a match at Damai Secondary's field.Imagine this team:(Somenamesnotincorrectspelling)
Jacobson,Weijie,Kenneth,Darryl,Shaun,Peng,James,Me,Ratner,Timothy,Ben.WHOA!not bad eh?we shall see next week then..now that i have field boots.heh..

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Cos' my head needs it!

Nachims!!

hey sup you Nachims!! haha i tell you the laser squad is so full of crap nowadays. how fun can it get?even in gym..julian our gym coach is getting to us now..joining in with the laughter and all.hah!anyways last few days has been a bore..nothing to do other than spamming DotA. today though..played pool with couple of friends IN THE MORNING!gosh at 10.then tuition to like 5 or something.thought i saw xiaoxuan but didnt bother.saw selena though..pool at some 8.50pm again and heh..saw xiaoxuan again.LOL!ahh pool with james kenneth Peng ratner and nick was really fun..haha.they are Seriously Funny.and i literally mean 2 words separately.LOL!played this really funky game called Elimination. something bout choosing 2 pool balls as your "Life". ahh its difficult explaining la. heh anyways today was complete..JUST that i needa do homework.DANG!!!



Lets take a walk on the walls..

It could be fun ^^



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Cos' its in the atmosphere!!

HAH!

aight aight.back from hongkong since 3rdjune. heh. spent like thousands on clothes PSP!! shoes and FOOD!lol madness spending there. but anyways its back to singapore and FUCK!sailing again.haha from wednesday till like tomrrow.Singapore Laser Trophy.here is my score..: 10,10,13,6,21,4,22,10,17 = 8th overall on 70pts with 2discards. OMG! wtf right?heh actually its kinda lousy but 8th still is kinda good. just that now no more sengleong and maxi sailing, bit off the downside.but still there is colin cheng and junhao.hah.anyways..IM BACK!haha and yea..ITS TIME TO STUDY!!haha

If it was meant to be..it will be. But if it was never meant to be, we should let it be and never force it.

Its just something crossing my mind.no more of this rubbish for me.it has taken some 99% of brain strength.lets put the energy to better use then..

TO SAILING AND STUDYING till the end of year =))

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Cos' im embracing it..